I DON’T KNOW

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I found this meme online as I was scrolling through Instagram and it made me laugh because it is my life in a nutshell. I never know what my next move is going to be. I’m a Libra and love balance and scheduling and planning, but my career choice is actually the complete opposite. Some may call me a masochist because it does drive me a little crazy, but also makes my life unpredictable and exciting. As a full time model, my life is lived day-to-day. Literally. I can’t tell you what I’m doing tomorrow until about 6pm eastern time when I’ve received an email with my schedule for the following day. It’ll either be a list of castings at scheduled appointment times, or a call time for a job. I work a lot between Florida, where I’m based (Miami), and New York City.

One day I’m here and one day I’m there and I never know for how long. Life happens. My trip can be “planned” for only a couple of weeks and I end up being gone for months. Work comes in waves, but there are always opportunities to be seized. So when my friends or family ask me, “when will you be back home?” The answer is, “I don’t know.” “Can we grab lunch next week?” My answer is usually, “as of right now, sure.” I can never make any promises because the few times that I DO make plans, life happens again, and I have to flake. So, the answer to my life is, I just don’t know. I’m taking it day by day, seizing the opportunities that I am given and trying to make the best out of everything, while trying to do what I love.

So if you find yourself asking yourself all these questions about life, like “where will I be in five years?”, “How do I find a job that I love?”, and “Am I doing the right thing?” Just remember that you’re not alone and I don’t think anyone really has the answer to these questions. I think everyone is just trying to survive and live life day by day. Your destined path will lead you to where you need to be. You just have to have faith that you’re walking in the right direction and life will take you where you need to be.

xx Raquel

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